“Get back on track!” That’s what I told myself. That’s my intention. The problem? I don’t know what track I’m on or where it’s going. That’s kind of a big problem. However…I’m convinced that for every big problem, there is a simple solution.
After trying multiple combinations of working/parenting, and always being available to my children, I think it’s time for me to leave my nest. That well-feathered, marginally clean, come-and-go-as-you-please nest is not a good work environment. I need structure. And high speed internet. It’s incredibly frustrating that my neighborhood is without an internet infrastructure. No cable, no DSL, no whatever else people use. We have a satellite, which delivers normal speed service for the first 10 days of the month. After that, we’re back to 1995 until we spend another four million dollars to add data to our already maxed out data plan. Ridiculous. And I’ve been trying to work from home for the last 10 years!
When I made the decision to stay home with my very first son (after taking him to work with me and attempting to breastfeed during the day amidst my all-male colleagues), I never thought it would be another 17 years before I went somewhere to work. But three more boys later, and that’s where I am. I’ve worked at their school, have floated in and out of my husband’s company, written freelance restaurant reviews, and made myself useful in all sorts of volunteer positions.
Now, with my oldest starting his senior year of high school and my “baby” in third grade, I think it’s time for gainful employment. That’s my new track. So, technically speaking, I need to get ON a track rather than to get BACK on track. Anyone hiring?